ahhhhhhhhhhh change....

Waking up to find that you are a 21 year old loser is just a blast let me tell you. Dead end job, no education, no real direction to speak of, and living at home(again). On top of all of that fun stuff, I am apparently unfit for any long term engagement. For those of of you, my dear peeping toms, who don't know I am back in California for an interesting reason. Emily(the frail i left the state for) decided a number of months ago that i did was deserving of fidelity in our relationship, and proceeded to sleep with a near illiterate "friend" of mine who was sleeping on MY couch for lack of a home. Not only did she sleep with him she waited six months and 2 moves to let me in on this knee slapper. When she did I left Florida for Cali in order to set my thought processes strait and consider my options. I decided that everybody makes mistakes and that bygones be bygones i would return home. But lo and behold the harlot had another surprise for me! The day before i was to fly back she told me not to bother. She had decided that i was not adult enough to continue any meaningful relationship with. Which may well have been true, but the manner in which things happened was down right galling.

The truth of the matter is that, oddly, the only part of my life that is going well is my love life. I have one.....

I met Jessica through my friend Chris, and fought tooth and nail against the feelings i had building deep in my soul for her. That's right folks, I have a soul *gasp*. I am madly in love with this girl and she feels the same for me. The past month or so in her company has been one of the best overall times of my life. I am happy with her, though not blind to the facts of my existence. I haven't been happy, truly happy, for many years now, it's my turn.

All in all I suppose things could be worse. that is all for now, more later when i am not so morose.
  • Current Music
    Bright Eyes

first update

So, for those of you who dont know.... i moved to alabama with my fiance Emily. We moved in with her parents and are waiting for our own place to open up. We are getting a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom house on 2 acres for 380 a month split with a friend of ours.
When we got back Em' went to work at the restauraunt Steak and Shake. She had served there for two years before moving to Califonia, and came back to work with the understanding that she would be trained for black tie(server middle management). After the tweeker who was the gen. manager got fired they decided to skip black tie and shift lead, and are getting ready to train her as a full assistant manager. So after the holidays she is going to Tallahase, FL for six weeks and paid training.
I on the other had am working at FYE (they just bought Sam Goodie) and hating it. i get schedlued for 6 hours and end up there for 12. The pay sucks, and the manager, Jay Paul, is ill equipped to do his job.
Emily's step dad, Rick, told me about an oppening where he works at Pemco( airliner mechanics) in supply. it's 40 hours or more a week. 9 to 10 dollars an hour. It's union so i will get full bennifits and wont get dicked around. I am a shoe in for the job because i am using Rick as a referance, and he is VP of the union.... dope....
I have been working on my music and there are some awsome developments there. I have picked up playing Gabber and have a set at a party New Years Eve. If all goes well with that set I will be a resident at a new Drum N Bass monthly. I'm also trying to hunt down a cheap set of drums. A friend of mine and I want to start a anarcho krust/grind band and i will be playing the skins/ makeing disturbing sounds in the background.


any way that is all for now. if I love you, you know who you are. if not fuck off



KEEP IT PUNK ROCK!!!!!
  • Current Music
    "JOHN WAYNE WAS A NAZI"... by MILLIONS OF DEAD COPS

So We Meet Again....

.... and so i am back and ready for action. I will try and keep this as updated as possible...



ill be back soon with a real post, but for now....


....i bid you adue...